Jumping off the proverbial cliff
After returning from a life changing trip to Peru for the Peru Through the Lens photo tour that I led, I felt different. My thoughts changed. My life changed. There was a mystical clarity in my head that I desperately wanted to hang on to and build on.
When I returned from Peru I felt a desire to change, but like many, I quickly fell back into bad habits, old routines and the same old, same old mundane everyday life.
I could feel Nova Scotia’s dreary winter ripping at my heart and soul and all I could think of was travel, freedom and the excitement that I felt when I escaped the ordinary life that I had led myself to.
You simply don’t get to be a successful business owner without having at least a little part of you that is a go-getter. A part of you that craves change, being better, stronger and looking for the next challenge. I guess after nine years in business I had hit my turning point where I felt successful, yet drained. Happy and loving my work, but yearning for something more. Looking for my next big project, my next challenge and searching for inner happiness which combines my work with my life in some sort of elusive balance.
As I wallowed in my thoughts and the crappy weather that made me never want to leave the house, I wallowed myself into actually making some changes. I broke up with my boyfriend of two years … not an easy thing to do, but something that was necessary in order for me to move forward and find myself. I started talking to people about how Peru had changed me … not that they needed me to tell them, most of my close friends could ‘feel’ that I had changed without ever needing to hear the words.
I’m sure at first, as I wallowed, my friends were worried about me … seeing me unhappy and tired. As my thoughts became more clear and I began to make decisions for myself and my life, I think they could see the clarity coming through the fog, just like I did sitting on the edge of a cliff at Machu Picchu.
A few days after I returned from Peru I began a business training program with Tasha at platform. The goal, to help me solidify my ideas for where I want to take my business and learn to make financial planning for my business understandable and easily usable in my business on a regular basis.
Not a bad starting point after my return from a life changing trip and needing to find a way to make change and move forward.
Through my sessions with Tasha, I began talking about my passions … about what I love and how I want to see my business change. This was a great exercise in working on my business instead of in my business.
So, just what do I love? What am I, Shari Tucker, passionate about?
I love it when people tell me stories. Stories of who they are, where they came from, experiences they’ve had and anything else they want to share!
I love photographing people who are in action, in motion, busy doing something or who are in their own element.
I love love love helping others, doing something for a good cause and making a difference in our crazy world.
I love travel, culture and adventure.
I love to write from the heart.
I’ve been wanting to combine travel with my photography business for the past year, but I’ve been stuck on how to make that happen. I think it was Tasha (my business trainer) who said to me (likely more than once) … ‘why not?’, ‘why is it that you think you can’t do this’? I’m sure I had all kinds of excuses for her and didn’t really get over those excuses until our training ended a month later.
When it was all said and done, the reason I was stuck in making this happen was because
I didn’t believe in myself and the ability to make my dreams come true. Somehow along the way I had gotten stuck in doing what makes me money but I had lost a lot of the passion I had started my business with. I was spinning my wheels in one place, always getting things done, but not moving forward. I was tired and didn’t feel like I had the energy to make change happen.
My biggest realization from the trip to Peru and the business training that I was going through was this … hold on to your hats, it’s pretty profound!
I was not living the life I wanted to be living.
I was living to work instead of working to live.
Now, lots of people say that you can’t have everything you want, but that’s simply not good enough for me. We only get one life and I plan to enjoy mine!
I have a successful business. I’m respected and well known in the community for my work, for being a female entrepreneur and for the heart & soul I’ve put in to the Young & Fearless project over the past few years. From the outside looking in, it looks like I am happy, doing well and have a great business. Most of which is true. But, for the last few years I haven’t been living the life I want to live and the only person stopping me is ME!
People in general often think if it’s not broken, don’t fix it. Well, my business isn’t broken, but my spirit is … just a little … so, I’ve decided to change it. I’ve decided to step forward off that proverbial cliff and hope for the best! In reality, I’ve done lots of crazy things and always seem to find a way to make them successful, or at least learn great lessons along the way! Why should this change to my business be any different.
And exactly what change am I speaking of? Well, I have decided to change my business … exactly how, that is yet to be figured out. I’ve decided that it is important to me to find myself, to find my passion and to live a life that I am happy with. Sounds pretty normal, but so few of us actually do it!
I hope you will follow along on my adventures this summer from the outside looking in, as I challenge myself to find my passion again.